Saturday, 2 November 2013

FRUSTRATING BLAME.............?????????

It is easy for us to blame other people for the mistakes that we have made in our lives. It is very easy to blame. To quote: ‘A poor workman always blames his tools’.

Life is what we make out of it and not what others create for us. Our fate/destiny is in our own hands, and we can determine how far we can excel or fall in life. Every negative situation can be turned into something positive depending on how we handle it, but blaming others for our own fault is nt a concrete conclusion in life.

So, do you blame your lecturers for your failure in examination? Because they made you to fail. If so, will blaming them change things? Will it help the situation?
 We often end up blaming others, as it is easier than actually taking action and taking responsibility ourselves. To share, small incident of mine, somebody has blamed me for the failure in one of the core subject.
So am here to say that if you find yourself pointing the blame finger at someone else, ask yourself what you can do to resolve the situation and take action instead of blaming.

Remember, when you point the blame finger at someone else, you are also pointing three fingers backwards towards yourself.
If something is not working in life, instead of blaming others, look at what action should be taken to resolve the situation and take responsibility. Blaming others for your own mistakes isn’t a solution.

Thursday, 31 October 2013


Today I read a quote which was written on the first page of engineering math’s text book, which went something like: “If you live each day as if it was your last, someday you’ll most certainly be right.” It made an impression on me, and since then, I asked myself: “If today were the last day of my life, would I want to do what I am about to do today?” And I got struck with my own questions.
Remembering that we are born to die soon is the most important tool that I can encounter to help myself to make a great choices in life. Because almost everything – all external expectations, all pride, all fear of embarrassment or failure – these things just fall away and everything seems useless and valueless in the face of death, leaving only what is truly important. Having a thought that we are going to die is the best way I guess to avoid the trap of having something to lose.
No one wants to die. And yet death is the destination we all share. No one has ever escaped it. And that is as it should be, because Death is very likely the single best invention of Life. It is Life’s change agent. It clears out the old to make way for the new. Right now, we are young and energetic, but someday not too long from now, we will gradually become the old and be cleared away. Sorry to be so dramatic, but it is quite true.
Our time is limited, so don’t waste it living on someone else’s life. Don’t be trapped by dogma –living with the results of other people’s thinking. Don’t let the noise of others’ opinions drown out your own inner voice. And most important, have the courage to follow your heart and intuition. They somehow already know what you truly want to become. Everything else is secondary.
Anyway, thanks to someone, this was one of the biggest knowledge from reading a simple quote written on math’s text book and yeah it was kind of reminder for me ABOUT MR.DEATH….

Wednesday, 11 September 2013


"The college schedule can seem crazy at times. Doing homework until midnight is not exceptionally glamorous or easy, but I love what I do and all that I learn. The best and worst part of college is the flexibility it offers. You are able to choose everything: your classes, extracurricular activities, friends, etc. A great deal of responsibility and time management is needed, but with a bit of planning and coffee you can be very successful. Surviving college takes hard work! However, at the end of all this, you will have your degree, and no one can take that away from you. How cool is that?”— Michelle Hattan

I still vividly remember my first day in college of science and technology.Heart racing , palms sweating as I got out of the car and walked towards the registration room inside the MPH, the butterflies were fluttering in my tummy! I wasn’t sure if it was my hunger or the nerve wrecking feeling I was experiencing.

On 21st july,i am not sure of date. At times,the announcements were taking place on the stage seemed probably important but with the distance that we(jenny,denkar,nim,yetsho and jerry) seated at , it sounded more like incessant chattering that could be easily ignored which was exactly what we did. Taking sight of the people around me was actually the most interesting thing I had done that day . Long streaked hair ( both guys and girls) , beautifully well-mannered dressup and unsual faces were the sights that overwhelmed me .

in the first week of collge days,we had very tight timetable and we felt like going mad cox many seniors told us that we would face many or at least a few shortcomings in college as it's NOT like high-school and not everyone there to help us,they even advised us to maintain CA and do well in class tests and all but we gave no damn to it,we took it lame and lenient.Sometimes I wonder whether they are actually attempting to make us feel worst.

Life in College felt like a liberation for me at first since I was far away from my family,No siblings near us to laugh voraciously by our side and no mother to persistently nag at us about what we should and should not do.
It was a bit difficult at first to be with people we never knew. Adjusting to a new environment can be a challenge,not only me,for many it is difficult to adapt to a new lifestyle and new changes. I personally experienced that changes can be a huge challenge and something that will be difficult to adapt to.I didn't know how I should behave just to fit in. But eventually, everything went smoothly...


Wednesday, 14 August 2013


Life will never be same again.
Everyone suffers, yet no matter how far the dark ripples of pain might spread, suffering is always individual. We feel it inside as wound to ourselves, but becoz its invisible, we can’t show this wound to anyone else.
Suffering can be defined as the pain that makes life seem meaningless and useless. At this stage of adulthood, we tend to learn to mask our emotions and feelings. We cannot share our hardships, sadness and trouble that we face day to day life to a person whom they haven’t experienced becoz sufferings differ from individual and it will take time for them to understand our hardships,problems and troubles too.
So,at that crucial moment, When we were in a world of loneliness, when there seemed none around to pour our feelings, we tend to meet a candid person but the question here is Do we expect each person we meet to be trustworthy?
Deciding to live from a place of acceptance
and expectation of good seems to me to be "throwing our heart out in front
of us”. Few weeks before, I got experience that if we expect to get hurt, it is likely it will be so. If we expect to fail, that too, is likely. If we are negative, there will be for sure suffering. Why? Because we give everything the
meaning that it has for us. Likewise, if we let our arrogance to roam in our mind freely, it will never let us listen to what anyone else is saying. Usually it compel us to reflect what we are not the one. And let us closed so that we lose an opportunity to receive, which is indirectly indicates suffering too.
  Our world would change astonishingly if we took full responsibility for our own life. Picture a world without blame, a world of authorized people, sincerely interested in one another, responsible and accountable. Take responsibility for our
actions, opinions, feelings and plans, "I
take responsibility for everything I think, say, feel and do.” this is what world is longing for …

Friday, 14 June 2013

Night Before My mathematics-2 Examination

The night before my mathematics-2 examination,
As I lay down for relaxation,
Closed my eyes covering my ear by headphone,
I dreamt of maths of eigen values and eigen vectors under the topic matrix
And of reducing quadratic equation to canonical form,
And of proof of divergence theorem and application of stokes theorem of very lengthy topics.
So many important questions that my math’s tutor Sir Apul told us to practice dance in my brain as if it’s gonna come in exam.
Not only that Sir Kumbu’s part application of ODE(overdose)i.e electric circuit and force vibration got fight in my brain of which one to study first.
So,force vibration won the fight and it let my whole body  vibrating which laid still on the warm bed
It forced my eyes to open wide just to negotiate simply by staring onto white walls
And say to myself it’s not fair,
That I should sleep and dream of LUFFY SAN(charater of one piece),
When I have had enough today(14th june).
I tell myself, that I have prepared well as well can be.
But unfortunately my fate depends on the papers that will be lend to me.
Whether it’s too long or too short I have only three hours which decides to pass or fail after studying 4 months in one compleete semester.
In the examination hall – the next morning,
I soothe all my friends and told them
“Come on guys, be cool like amul kool, all is well”.
And in my case, I leave my fate in the faith of God.
But in the end at all times turns out to be,
not as bad as my night’s dream.

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