Tuesday, 21 October 2014


I don't know what I did this time
To trigger the anger of my migraine.
Torturing me, no warning or reason
I try to be the perfect child.
When she visits, I got no choice to kneel at her feet,
presenting and preparing her pills and naps.
Each morning,no partial,I provide her my full attention,
sometimes I feel like running away when she snatches me,but m helpless
sometimes I feel very irry looking into her selfishness and hunts me to the hell,having to give up evrythg fr her sake
I ask if there’s anything I can do.
Then sometimes she slow down with no explanation
Knocking me to the hell.
She waits for three days and sometimes a week until I give up
And can only hope to die.

Then she laughs selfishly
As if she is really me.

Then sometimes she slow down with no explanation
Knocking me to the hell.
She waits for three days and sometimes a week until I give up
And can only hope to die.
Every night I check on her,

Monday, 20 October 2014

dancing in the illusion of the world

Recently,I heard so many people talking about real life,but what is real life and how do we know that its real.think back to your past and the things you have done,are any of those things out of character and not the sort of things you copuld ever imagine yourself doing?what iof your past was just implanted memories,how would you ever know if you had really done those things or not?do I really believe any of that is true?not reallt.but you never know!may be youe whole life is purely illusion yet enjoying as if its permanent..

life ends in death, facts of life
But nothing less or more we are powerless to picture
that our own life will come to an end.
This is very much true of many young as well as adults
who live in benign and prosperous places
where death is typically hidden from sight.
young as well as adults are often filled
with ambitions and open-minded ideas,
and they think of life as an open skyline,
while death seems like it is distant,
lost in the hazes of a distant time and illusion of the world.
none are mindful of death, everyone are in harmony swimming in the ocean of illusion, yet enjoying the fresh and clean life which would turn into disguised situation when time passes by,despite nobody is mindful of it.
to my recent happenings,never did I knew that are adults too are addicted and enjoying in the ocean of illusion,I came to realize, nothing more or less,there aint any reason to feel bad to the one who is in the bad situation with seriously illed-medical problem, nobody knows the fact,that everyone,either young or old,have to follow the same path,but adults do lack in such consciousness.life is circle,everyone are interdepended to eachother,we can not guarantee that we might not lend help from the one who lend help from us,that’s the wrong notion ,I wud say it.It is true that, in the due course of life, many of them will receive rewards
which seem to justify their early optimism.
But as the seconds to minutes tricks by,minutes to hours,hours to days,days to months passed by,months to years, continue to pass,
every one will  learn a truth of life, that their existence is almost at an end
even though they were only recently young.
so,it’s the fact that  many will have begun to suffer a breakdown in body and mind. one will have more trouble trying to keep path of their sequence of thought;
where fastness in walking would sooner  be slower and more tiresome one,
moreover, visiting  to doctors destination and funerals would become the stuff of the lives.but in times none realize what is the fact of life,cuz everyone lost in the illusion of the world and none wants to know the truth of the life.And they will understand in a deep way that time would stop by when their breath and heartbeat will stop,their vague self will disappear, and the same Mother Nature that moves the earth will divide their remnants, as dust returns
to dust, life consumes life.
finds its end in the nothingness of death

Sunday, 19 October 2014

emadatshi thots of wangzom

Goodbye to you..
I feel the time is getting close for us to depart.
I'll show that I'll miss you,With last words from my heart.

We must be dreaming,For it has gone too fast.
The time we have spent together,Will soon be in our past.

I'll forget this day is coming,Today I stand here.
Trying to tell you,How much I really care.

one thing is sure,We will be leading our in our own ways and in separate ways
Just hold on to our memories ,Say Never Say Goodbye!!!

Wonders of my thoughts
Sitting outside the verandah of Rinchen khanza(RK), looking across the the land of cst
Wondering why life, at times, can seem great.But in times, it took me to just think
My life could change, faster than a blink.

Is this a reason behind for why should we always appreciate?
Not knowing when loved ones may unexpectedly die.
Living every day like as if it is very last.
for my days could be very long or go by very fast

So I'll treasure and take nothing for granted,
never utter a words that shouldn't be chanted.
If today is the last day I have on this earth,
I accept my life, for what it's been worth.

Tomorrow isn't promised to be here like the way I am staying in this moment
Today perhaps be the last day to pray for.
I won’t wait for tomorrow, will do it all today
If tomorrow never comes, I’ll never regret a day.

If I had one last wish

If I had one last wish to make it would have to be, 
that God would heal my root teacher and give his pain to me.
For I've never seen my root teacher hurt so bad in all my life, 
I'd do anything and everything to take thy pain and strife.
without thy presence here in this life,I'm not sure where I'd be.

thy taught me about the
Real world and what life really was.

so God if you can grant this wish for me I'll eternally be grateful to you.

Sunday, 4 May 2014

what makes us unhappy????

What is the difference between happy and miserable? I have been always wondering that will there be something that unhappy people can do to be better-off? I believe there is.
Let me narrate you a story to illustrate this observation.
A long time ago in a distant village lived a man, who was very egoistic and where everyone avoided him. He was the kind of person who believed that there was only one who is better off in anythg he does.futhermore, he was never contented with anything. His clothes never felt comfortable. His shoes never fit his feet. He complains a lot in whatever things he does. He complains a lot about food. Even if food is special, he would have something to complain about. Nonetheless, nothing satisfies his mind.
Briefly speaking, he has a sense of ordering, criticizing, and dissatisfies about the deeds of everyone in the world.
Unluckily, the man got married, which matters became very worse. No matter whatever his wife did, in his eyes it turns everything to be wrong. Whatever his wife did to him,it was never satisfactory and he proved her always wrong, Because he lack in acceptance, gratefulness to others. She tried her best to be a good wife, but it seemed to be in vain, the less she pleased him. Finally, one morning she confessed to him.
“let’s exchanged our work program ,” she told him. “From today, I will do your chores and you will do mine.”
“But you cannot do my chores,” the man replied. “You don’t know first thing about ploughing, irrigating.”But the woman has fervent determination to do whatever work assigned to her. So,she let her man to believe where he didn’t dare disagree.
So in the following day,the wife went off to the fields and the man began their exchanged chores. 
Unluckily, nothing went according to his way of thinking. Nevertheless, whatever he does, everything turned into opposite way. He broke the plates, spilled everything on the floor, burned the dinner, and at last set the house on fire, and nearly he could escape from fire.
Until wife returned from work,she observe her husband lying helplessly on thd floor ,smoke not yet stpped rising from his clothes.immediately,she helped him to get rid from evrythg .
From that dayonwards, the man stopped complaining about anyone and anything.he has started respecting for others views,opinions and deeds of others.
So to be precise, the story teaches us that those who complains about anything whoch come along their life, creates their own and others’ lives in trouble. It also teaches us that pride will neva make man successful and also teaches us not to judge others until and unless we walk in their shoes for a while.
In our story, it was the absence of absence of acceptance of others deeds. He lacks to appreciate others and he wasn’t in a position to acknowledge others contributions.
I think the world would be a happier place, less stressful, less angry, and more spiritual if we have sense of gratefulness to others and if we are avoid our egoistic behaviors to others.One of the great leaders said that, Pride destroys our happiness and sets up selfishness in its place. 
One Sunday afternoon,i asked one of my friends,sangay pem. What makes her unhappy?though I am not really a scholar in such things,i just told her that, appreciation should be present in us, we have something to rely on and think of someone who do not haf what we are possessing in times of unhappy state…
I believe that many people are unhappy because they have not learned to be thankful and appreciative. Some are in to the burden of anger. Some pass their days as though suffering a deep sadness they aren’t sure of . Others are unhappy because life didn’t turn out to the way they expected it to be.
“If only I had that much money,” some might say to themselves, “then I could be happy and go for shopping.”
“If only I were better looking would have wore that…………….”
“If only I had a new car, a college degree, a job, a wife,. or I were 12 inches taller,if I and thin,for some,if am fat……..”
If we keep on yearning for what we we don’t have,there are a thousand and one reasons for us not to be happy,unhappiness is for sure.i would simply say that, unhappiness is on the things we lack in life. The problem doesn’t solved itself if we keep om folloeing the path of what we lack in life. The only problem is, the more single-mindedness on the things we don’t have, the more unhappy and more sad we become.
Over the course of my judgments made, One thing I could share is: we cannot guess happiness by the amount of money we have, name and fame we have in life, or power we possess. The fact is that the materialistic things so valued by the world are sure birth giver of unhappiness in the world.
One thing I got to experienced that we should never became angry. Whenever anger grow in us, we should always think, it’s useless, it’s only a way to be unhappy and resentful.when life itself is unpredictable, what’s there to bury ourselves in angry nest, simple thing, better give up and be calm down..
Our minds have a wonderful capacity to notice the unusual .
To be happy one should be openhearted.
We must let go of the negative emotions, Anger, resentment, and bitterness. Nobody including me would never agree to take bathe in muddy water, so, why should we let our spirits bath with negative thoughts and feelings?
Pray with all your heart. Don’t waste another moment feeling unhappy and sad over useless things. Every day drain from your heart the feelings of resentment, rage, and defeat that do nothing but discourage and destroy state of happiness.
Don’t wait to start new day. Bring a new life with new thoughts burried of positive thinkings..:D

Thursday, 3 April 2014

Things of what I’ve realized to be true in my perspectives.

First and foremost questioning i would like to ask to my readers,
Is body important or mind???
obviously everyone would reply that body is important because every one cares a lot especially so called BODY, giving more importance, taking bath, wearing branded clothes, applying different kinds of cosmetics, but no one dare to care about MIND, only rare ,rare of the rarest do care mind than body.
When I say such, I don’t mean not to care body. The main reasons I am going to point out is that, body will return to space.
Life is impermanent
Nothing lasts forever, so snatch everything when you can.enjoy your life the way you want to. Don’t enjoy your living in someone’s shoe
Judging things in others having not yet accepted your own faults.
The personalities we detest in others are the qualities present in ourselves. This is something most of us can't even hold and we get exasperated when we hear such things, especially when we are thinking so highly of ourselves and we know for sure that we are perfect and others are not.

We  do not haf rights to compel anyone to Love us
Love approaches because it wants to, not because we want to let it to be with us. i didn't for vote for who my parents would be,likewise,Our family, friends, teachers, they all love us because they choose to, not because we want them to. Love is meant to be felt from heart, lived and not to be forced on anyone. We can’t force anyone to love us, forcing others to love us would lead to misery,willingness is must from wholeheartedly and for the sake of loving.At last, it would turn to heartbreaking..

How People Treat Us Is Their Fate, How We React to that is our fate.
When we are happy with our own life, we act in kind, happy and loving ways toward everyone around us,and environment itself becomes pure,but what say on sad mood...different case.

What we think, become reality
Where we are right now are what we become cux of the thoughts that cling to our mind alys, and our life perceived the way we think over and over, again and again. If our thoughts were optimistic, our actions will be a reflection of optimistic thoughts and beliefs we have. Most of what we perceive is only what we think about what we perceive.
We Cannot Control Others’ Behaviors and their life, and it’s rude too trying change in others.
We cannot bring changes in others. We Only Think we can but the foremost thing is, we need to keep in mind that trying to change others will never change, it would be lead into vain, at the same time increases hatred. For example, trying hard to bring changes to your siblings, beating them mercilessly to change their bad habits, instead of changes to take place, they would wait for chance to revenge..
So, the only thing we can control is our own attitude towards them and their behavior. Try not to change others, change in self before pointing one blaming finger on others.
What makes food to be tasty???its mind that makes food tasty or not. If there is sthg to fill up empty stomach, its more than enough. Having food with value and having food for taste, is totally different case.we complain a lot,but we never think about who dies of famished.is it good to complain esp. fooding????

life is simple, so, keep it simple …what’s there to make it so complicated.
        Live your life, the way you want to, not the way other want you to live your life their way. what’s the special in some1 to follow their way of living. Just because others are eating food on a beautiful plate, it doesn’t mean that it is must to eat food on same kind of beautiful plate. Give a thought, does it give happiness to you and at same time, to happiness to others..
Just because others are doing such thing, it’s not mandatory one should be following.

Branded clothes,branded cars,branded watches..branded things..
Having to wear branded clothes, do we get extra protection??
Do we need branded cars to be driven??i don’t need cars but…lets remove “but” and say NO.value things,not the branded…

Self. Self…self….everywhere filled with self-fishiness..

People always think about their own comfort zone, they least bother, how others would be felt.

mindfulness in misuse of Money
You may wonder what does this mean. When i buy things,whatcomes in my mind is that do I really need the item.what's the use of buying unnecessary things which would bring happiness fr short duration.

This are the things I caught few months back. This is just a knowledge or let’s say things of what I’ve realized to be true in my perspectives. What is true in other world may not be true for me and what is true for me may not true for others.this ain’t a rule to lead a life but I take it kinda set true realization life ,to be clear,not to all..

life story

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